一晃就两年了。还记得入伍的前一晚，心情是多么的紧张，完全睡不着。入伍当天一大早就得到 Ｐａｓｉｒ Ｒｉｓ Ｂｕｓ Ｉｎｔｅｒｃｈａｎｇｅ 报到。还好，当时有弟兄姐妹来送行，让我倍感安慰（你们送给我的鼓励手册让我非常感动）。但是我还是充满着恐惧感去迎接一大堆的未知。在 Pulau Tekong 上，卖猪仔般的坐上 Tonner，剃光头，穿着难看的衣服排队拿难吃的食物，让我觉得像自己像在坐牢似的。。。 还好三个月的基本训练就这样过了。最难熬的莫过于六天的 field camp 。。。但在这三个月里让我学习了 not taking things for granted。我的 platoon 也是疯狂好玩的一群，所以才让这三个月的训练没想象中难熬。
三个月的基本训练过了后，很幸运地，我被分配到宪兵部队 （MP)，经历了两个月的宪兵基本训练。那段日子我是快乐的。MP 真的是一个很不错的 vocation。
但快乐的时光仅止于此，两个月的宪兵基本训练后，被派到所有宪兵都抗拒被派到的 sub unit, 就是 post out 到 某个 infantry unit，能留在总部的美梦就这样破灭。。。
在被派去的第一个月简直要了我的命，我差点就得了忧郁症。。。那里的 commanders 简直不当我们人看，而受到那样的对待是因为他们说想把我们训练到有 infantry mindset。。。什么屁嘛，原本以为当了 MP 就不用再受这样的苦，难怪没人喜欢被派到这里。。。我当时几乎每餐都吃不下饭。。。 我猜只有我们这些苦命 MP 是唯一当 MP 当到一点尊严都没有的吧。。。 别的人出来就在DB 骂人，我们却窝在这里被人骂。。。 过后事情慢慢到了忍无可忍的时候，有一批人投诉回总部，生活才得已改善。。。
Deployment - 我执行了一年多的事情。。。 它让我避开了 chiong sua 但也无意中把我带入前所未有的忧郁和孤独感，我感觉跟神和弟兄姐妹的关系越来越疏远，deployment schedule prevented me from attending church. Suddenly I felt the whole world don't really understands me, I became very disappointed with people and was so frustrated with the situation I am stuck in... This kind of feeling lasted for months and nearly drowned me... However things happened in army brought me back to reality and as I felt I couldn't hooked on to anyone for support and comfort, I turned to God.
Actually my Army path is quite eventful, since I am the more responsible one around (I am not being thick skinned, its a fact. Haha.), it did not bring more advantages, but people start taking me for granted. I was always doing extra deployments (3 SIR, APEC & Tekong). A series of events also got me so demoralized (H1N1, round incident & SW deployment with a problematic platoon).
Now as I looked back, all these events made me a stronger person. I realized much more things about human relationships and not taking things for granted. I can say I have matured quite a bit. I am also more happy nowadays so don't worry people!
I am entering another phase of life. Goodbye to my 2 years of service. Its time to go and work hard for my dreams. If everything goes according to plan, see you Hong Kong in 3 years time! I would like to go back to where I belong!
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